Work
I've been incredibly busy at work which is good, but in general, work is not awesome. I'm still fairly micromanaged and my instinct when that happens is to rebel and be non-productive. I think it's a normal human reaction, though. I mean if you have someone telling you what to do and how to do it every second then vanishing into the night, only to pop back unannounced and repeat it, it tends to make you just wait around for the next round instead of taking initiative.
In general, I have bigger plans on the horizon for income but I will wait a bit before I announce them here because this site is crawled by Google and I don't want to give any competitors a heads up. As an aside, did you know that my blog comes up in the second page of search results for Steve Sandvoss? I get quite a few readers who search for his name and come here to read about him.
School
School starts next Tuesday but that's only if I can add into the class I want. It was full and I wasn't able to sign up officially. Hopefully the instructor can add me. It will be a day class for a change. Tuesdays and Thursdays from 9:30am to 11:30am. That should make things interesting, but I am looking forward to continuing my computer coding skills. I'm still awaiting my report card, but I'm guessing I got an A in Computer Science and a B or a B- in Political Science. That teacher was definitely not one of my favorites. It really gave me a bad taste in my mouth for online classes. The grading felt very subjective and the quiz system was just plain broken. I can't tell you how many times I protested a score on a quiz and had the teacher agree with me and add points to my score. How many times did I get dinged and didn't protest? Who knows. Just glad to be out of it and I'll be very hesitant to do another online one. One of my classmates from Computer Science assured me that it's pretty much just this teacher and not the whole process. I might give it one more chance.
Personal Life
It's in this area that I've been the most busy. I've been meeting lots of new people online and in the city and have really been enjoying myself. I was telling my mom that I still think about Jesse, and I know he still loves me despite what he says, but to quote a Michael W. Smith song, "Love isn't love until you give it away." Jesse hasn't learned how to really figure out what's important in life. He had a guy who loved him - as some would argue - too much. But when someone else's love for you exceeds your own love for you, that's a bad omen and the relationship is likely doomed. I finished reading a book called, "10 Smart Things Gay Men Can Do to Find Real Love" by Joe Kort. Joe is a licensed psychotherapist in Michigan and he is gay. The book had such an impact on me that I contacted Joe to see if he could refer me to anyone local to me who had his training and commitment to gay issues. He said he didn't know anyone, but he offered his life coaching service over the phone. Life coaching is a bit different from psychotherapy because it's more goal driven and action oriented. He still spends time on the past, but only so far as to help you understand how it affects your decision making in the future. That seems perfectly suited to my current situation so I'm going to give it a try. It's not cheap and I don't know if I'll be able to do it for long, but I think it's worth a shot.
I think I'm still a bit numb about Canada. I know it's still 6 months away, but I feel like I have more planning to do in terms of finalizing my route and getting the last pieces of gear together. I also need a new set of tires for the trip and my bike will need a complete 16K mile service which hopefully Honda will pay for (long story). I think my biggest fear is "wasting" the trip. Driving a car is about the destination. Riding a motorcycle is about getting to the destination. I feel like I've planned this trip as if it were a car trip instead of a motorcycle trip. Focusing on the destinations rather than the roads leading to them. I might make some time this weekend to revisit this a bit. Plus I need to start filming the footage for the intro.
Last thing I'll mention here is that I've met a, let's just call him interesting, guy online. He's certainly got me thinking about the very diverse sexuality in the world. He's not boyfriend material mainly because he's not emotionally available, but the physical aspect is quite fascinating. Sorry if it sounds cryptic. I want to protect his privacy, yet still document the experience from my side as best as possible. I'll post the results of the experiment if it ever happens (meaning if he doesn't chicken out).
That's enough for now. I'll have more to post soon. Remember: Wag more, bark less.
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