Learning to Receive

One aspect of the experience that affected me didn't occur to me until last night.  One of my brothers is 18.  He was the youngest one there.  As the older one in my relationships, I'm often the one called on to be cool and collected, in charge, under control, be the care giver, have the answers, etc.

Without getting into specifics, let's just say that there were several times during the weekend when I desperately needed the care and comfort of that 18 year old man and got it.  The experience was so mind blowing to me.  For the first time, I saw a young man who willingly gave to me - someone he barely knew - the comfort I needed.  I also experienced what it was like to receive that care from someone younger than me.  This has been uncomfortable to me before this weekend and I'm hooked.  It was so satisfying to drop the wise, stoic front and be vulnerable with someone younger than me.

The lessons just keep pouring in.