The Trepidation Dance

I'm going out with Darren and Shelby tonight to the gay district in Sacramento.  As usual, I'm physically calm and mentally trepidatious about going.  What I'm wondering is if I keep exposing myself to the side of the gay community that reinforces my negative beliefs instead of seeing the sides I'm certain must exist.  While it's true that gay people know how to have fun in a club better than most, that fun is our "wild man" coming out.  I may be mistaken, but I don't think the answer to my relationship woes lies on a path via my "wild man".  There are two extremes to this equation:  On one extreme, I can sit at home and play World of Warcraft until 3am like I did last night.  On the other extreme, I can go out at sit at gay clubs and bars every possible opportunity.  Somewhere in the middle, lies a way for me to meet someone who will actually punctuate sentences and carry a conversation.  Oh, and is it too much to ask to be sexually attracted to the person and vice versa?

As always, I will keep an open mind about tonight.  I try to keep myself in the frame of mind that I'm there to have some drinks, look at the scenery and enjoy the music.  I'm not there to find a boyfriend, and it's not likely that my next partner is a club hound anyway.  So I'll just hold out some sliver of hope that some boy-next-door late twenties-something who just moved here from the midwest somewhere is tagging along with his party-happy gay cousin and just happens to be in the same club I'm in tonight.  And he likes bears.  

Hmm...  Maybe World of Warcraft isn't such a bad idea after all....